I hate being in love. I hate feeling so happy when I meet you. Smiling shyly, awkwardly, with my heart beating so fast, cold hands, and cold sweat on my back. I hate being next to you, looking for a million sentences to make you laugh and smile. Doing anything to see that beautiful smile..thats my treasure, you are. Must everything you do, make me wanna smile..can I not like you for awhile? NO!
I hate reading your messages in my inbox. I hate the way I need so much time to reply, erasing it over and over again, thinking about it word by word. I’m looking for the perfect line! I hate falling in love, all the details I say, write, and send to you becomes so important. I hate being in this position but I just can’t help it, can’t I?
I hate thinking about you before I sleep and feeling something move inside my heart, spreading all over my body, making me feel so anxious. I hate spending an entire night just thinking about you. I hate it when I wake up in the middle of night, and look at my phone, find your messages. “udh tdur? gnite, hve a nice dream, let” THAT simple words can make me awake, and just call you right at the time!
I hate imagining how your face looks like right now, how you smile, what you’re doing with your friends, I hate being so worried when I know you caught a cold…I hate wondering where you go until midnight. I hate waiting you to come home, worried..I hate feeling so jealous when I see you talking with some other girls..or when you reply that message from you ex-girlfriend.
I hate believing you. I know you lied to me, so many lies! And I hate that I can believe you again after that. I hate being so sensitive and moody, and maudlin in front of you..I hate crying in the middle of night, just thinking how you’ve done me wrong..
I hate the way you hold my hand, the way you look at me, the way you make me laugh. I hate tha fact that I feel so cozy with ‘that’…I hate feeling empty when you’re not around. I hate waking you up in the morning,,you are such a big ‘kalong’. I hate looking your long black hair, feel that I’m talking with a girl. I hate looking you standing in my fences, and we talk about everything there. I hate being a kid when I’m with you, we acted like kids! I hate feeling my heart beating so fast when I suddenly see my dad’s car, or when my dad call me when I’m with you. I hate that I just cant stand a night without your call. I hate knowing you’re not here anymore.
I hate liking you. Because I’d have to look for small mistakes in you. Mistakes that I look for desperately becauandise I’d hate to know that you could be perfect, you could be flawless, and that I might have fallen for you…
I hate being in love, especially to you. Because in this overwhelming feeling, behind the urge to be with you, my heart struggles and explodes slowly.
Hate so much I love you. Hate so much I need you…
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22 thoughts on “Hate Love”
CBB ya :p
CBB apaan si?? Yayy
Postingan nya udah di edit sana sini, tempel sana sini…*ditabok mbak indomielezat*
GAGAL PERTAMAX … pulang kampung deh ane..
btw nmpang baca dulu..
*puas2in tabok2 mimi setelah sekian lama ilang*
nice posting. salam kenal, yah……
diposting ulang di sini…..
anyway this is my truestory…… 🙂
Sakuzo Estrella Stradivari like this ! hahaha.
woy, orangnya ngilang lagi woy
*cariin di rumahnya*
lama ga maen kesini… ternyata masih ngilang juga
lagi bikin shinetron dia di pesbuk ;p
ampun dahhh jeung sella mahh!
jadi pentung pentungan
kau hilang kemana??
sabar yah… don’t ever give up in love.. SEMANGAATT…!!
ternyata semua emang lagi males menulis ya
‘nyungsep di pojokan di bawah puun duren, semedi cari ide’
episode berapa kali ini miiiiiii……
bintangnya siapa ya sekarang?
dan saya bertekad melancarkan jurus monyet sore ini ‘lirik side bar’